Pandemic Diary

(a limited series)


This is a curated collection of lightly-edited excerpts from my daily journal. These are observations, my commentary on those observations, notes to myself, and other things I might want to remember about this period. It’s not everything (sorry — you don’t get to see everything), but it’s a lot.

It started as a pandemic-only collection, but I soon realized the picture would be artificial and incomplete if I didn’t include the context of cultural and racial and political tension that has been so intertwined with the pandemic, so those entries (and some others) are here now, too. And some life-as-usual, because despite everything, there really has been more of that than anything else.

Warning: politics ahead. I wrestled with this, and considered excluding the judgmental bits, and anything that might possibly offend anyone, but I decided to value honesty and disclosure over discretion. (More on that here: “Should I publish about politics?”) If this offends you, I’m sorry. But I call it as I see it.

This isn’t journalism. I’m aiming for personal understanding, not balance (see “Let me think about it”). And don’t expect coherence or continuity (that’s not my goal here)…


 
Daydreaming (a different meditation)
Jeff Calvert Jeff Calvert

Daydreaming (a different meditation)

...if you find yourself without much thought, if the only thing is a fascination with the pattern of plaster on the ceiling or the shapes of the clouds as they drift by…

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The “second sunrise” why

...one of my favorites is: “I want to know who I am at second sunrise”... but it has problems when it comes to explaining what I do, because I already know.

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Query (Eat Clean, Run Dirty)
Jeff Calvert Jeff Calvert

Query (Eat Clean, Run Dirty)

...my response to Jess’s “What are some of your ideas?”, but I’m pleased with the result, and I think I’ll be able to use most of it in some way in the article. I hope it’s not too precious…

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Sunday (family) runday
Jeff Calvert Jeff Calvert

Sunday (family) runday

We’ll probably head off into Rothrock again, with some combination of mild trails and roads, in line with what we can expect at No Business in a couple months.

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Things turn around

It’s true when things are going well, and it’s true when they’re going poorly. It’s an endless cycle of ups and downs, and the only unreliable part of this cycle is the timing

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ES100 Race Day message

...think briefly about what might have been, but it isn’t good to dwell on that. It’s far better — and far more ultra — to assess the situation as it is and deal with it in a positive…

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When a run comes together
Jeff Calvert Jeff Calvert

When a run comes together

I did a better job of throttling myself... I did a better job of staying hydrated... I was much more like a veteran ultrarunner than the over-enthusiastic beginner I’ve…

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Reunion AAR

If it’s hard for us to do this... then it’s hard for other people to do it, too. When we see them failing at it, it doesn’t automatically mean that they’re dumb or malicious.

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Curing our sports addiction

When I mentioned that this pandemic-produced lack of spectator sports might help people break their sports-spectator addictions, a friend was offended.

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Doom scrolling

I’m having a hard time kicking this doom-scrolling habit, this hunger for those highly addictive bits of news that are continuously flowing through my various news feeds in this time of churning.

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Jeff Calvert Jeff Calvert

Reunion

We’ve already decided to do our part for making it as pandemic-safe as we can, and in my reply-all response to the invitation I said we’d be there “for the outdoor parts of the day…

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Pacing an FKT on the MST
Jeff Calvert Jeff Calvert

Pacing an FKT on the MST

I just had the pleasure/privilege of sharing some miles with Eric “Idiotrunner” Kosek, showing him around our local section of the MST as he works his way north enroute to the FKT…

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Emotional

...it’s a sign of mental and emotional and spiritual health to have the perception and the empathy to feel that way, and the confidence to allow it to flow when it wants to flow.

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Taxes

It could be that it’s good for my mind to face this tax puzzle each year, that it keeps me sharp, that it’s a benefit to face puzzles like this from multiple genres on a regular basis.

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